Tuesday, April 7, 2009

I have

Too much drama going on my life. Especially family problems. Everyone is either drifting away, having bullshit with each other, or just not slamming enough effort into it. My sister has b.s with my mom. Cousin ran away for her boyfriend that threatened the whole entire family. UGH. Then i have school on the other hand which is stressin the shit outta me. Fuck.

- THEN i have another problem which includes a boy. I have no clue what to do or say to him anymore. Im half way there holding on tight trying to be faithful and a gf materal yet.. hes just barely starting and what not. Its been 2 months that we've been talking talking but its not really going anywhere. I stay up all night waiting for his call yet sometimes he doesnt even call. & he says hes busy and tired. Then a friend told me that.. " Don't wait for his call and especially stayup for it cause what if hes out flirting with girls and playing you and your just in your own little world trying to stay up and talk to him. But you never know if hes out messing with other girls. He doesnt even say your beautiful, pretty, nor cute. A girl need those once in their life especially from the guy they want to be with. Just think about the pros and cons about being with him." Sigh* wtf man.

+ Wanna see my Pros and Cons about him ? (;

PROS: Adorable, lets me pinch his cheek when hes in a bad mood, lets me call him a fag, ugly, gay, fat, and retarted, spoils me, lets me do w.e i want, makes me smile just in a sec, makes his sad face! :D, Smells great (:, his smile ALWAYS make me smile, gives me feelings that want to run into his arms and hold him reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeal tight, doesnt let go when i ask him to, when he looking down and hears me calling his name and when he looks up he smiles real fast, and finally he makes me feel all bubbly and tingly inside as if dozens and dozens and dozens of flowers are bloooming inside!

CONS: Spends too much time skateboarding with friends, never go out on dates anymore, quiet, shy, doesnt stand up for me, when boys flirts he doesnt do anything about it.


I really just want someone to be decent. No player, cheaters and liar stast. Been through alla that and im done with that. Just someone who can always understand me from where im coming from. A person who can support me when im at my lowest. Idc if he has cash or not I have my own money i can spend. All i ask is; Give me the full happiness and pure love you can, be honest with me no secrets and alla that. Cheaters ARE Liars and i dont need those in my life or relationship. & finally.. if you can deal with me at my worst then you will be recieving my love. Fair trade?


& HI, TOEEEEE NEEEEE! :D