I want Nimedez & I to be okay.

All these relationship problems are making me want to just go to bed and never wakeup. I want tuttimelon. Take me!! Ugh, i hate it when my momma always depreciate me she always does it when I'm not in the mood. Every fucking time I'm going through some bullshit she says something to me and make me feel worse. FML. & stupid songs on my ipod making shit worse right now. I've been eating SOO much lately and at night i don't even have anyone to make me smile before i drift off to bed. All i have now is fucking pho. I don't like this. It's like I've been sad all month cos if you haven't noticed, my blogs lately are emo as fuck and i cant even stop cursing. I'm tired of faking being happy cause its not fun. I just want to sleep. You know what's sad? I ate 4 icecream drumsticks, drank 5 packs of some little sweet drinks, 2 bowls of meat, 3 bowls of noodles and a bowl of veggies + tofu. It feels like summer 08 when i got dumped. All i did that whole summer was vent to the foods in the fridge. I ate alll summer nonstop bowl after bowl just over one boy. But this time its worse.. You don't even know how much i was into him. Then some rumors and bullshit started going on and we stopped. & now I'm here gaining fucking weight like i knew it was going to happen. I want my body back, where i didn't call myself fat and when I'd be comfortable in a bikini but look at me now. I have to change outfits just to hide my tummy. HOW FUCKING SAD IS THAT! There's a new monster in town and it's Yvonne Hoang.