Fuck all this shit about promises and shit. Doesn't even exists anymore. After having a deep talk with Bryan and Tommy. I realized they were right. All boys are the same. They'll be nice to any girl they want the SAME way. Bryan set up a surprise party JUST FOR HER + he spent sooo much money and time with this. Tommy will probably DIE just for mimi and what do i have? I have boys smoking, getting high, fucking around with me, cheating, abusing me, and leading me onto the fast way getting into a relationship. I want baby steps. I guess i do need a lot space.. & now im just here think wtf am i suppose to do now. I've made too many mistakes in this month and im not about to make another one that is going to hurt me. I dont need that shit. N.N. was even manly enough to talk to you and make sure you treat me right. Ugh. I really wanna pour out all the anger, sadness, stress in me out. But im hella holding it in. Today was about Krystina having a good time but it hella endup maryjo and I having a bad time but at the end the party, we got happy. (: Yeah, heron can do a lot when you're sad. MAYBE tomorrow when i go to water world things will get better & i have to shove a tampon up my pusssay -___- all bad. Whatever im going to go watch Twilight w/ my cousins. My cousins are the only people i want to be with at the moment..